This will be short and sweet.
I know you ALL want to know I vomited. Yes, I did. And you would think, “Hey, she’s got cancer… why wouldn’t she vomit?”, right? Actually, I have not vomited in a very long time. Not even when I was pregnant. I did not have morning sickness and therefore I never puked. I never even felt nauseous. Nausea came sometime before my birthday last year… probably around Thanksgiving. And I’ve been living with this nausea for a good 3 months now never having vomited. I can usually ride out the nausea wave and then move on with my day.
Well, I guess everything has just finally caught up with me. With all the things I’ve been worried about, taking care of Autumn, and trying to live a normal life with this surgery looming large over my head, I think I have bitten off more than I can chew. Because tonight after eating a very yummy dinner, I was suddenly and without warning, hit with an overwhelming urge to vomit. Not just a wave a nausea… but a knock upside the head with dizziness prancing hand in hand with nausea and with vomit trying to force its way through the door. I gave Autumn to Matt headed to the bathroom and then basically spilled my guts. Literally.
I think I’m getting sick. Just a cold really. Not a sinus infection like Matt has. But sick just the same. Which is not good since my surgery is Thursday and if I’m sick I can’t have the surgery. As much as I don’t want to have surgery, I don’t want to prolong it either. The next available time for me to have the surgery would be at the end of April and non of my doctors feel this would be a good thing. They all agree that I need to get this tumor out as soon as possible. I was told to rest and take it easy. I think I will finally take their advice. I’ve been more tired than I’ve ever been in my life. I can barely think straight. I know I don’t want to get sick… this surgery needs to be done and over with so I can move on to the next part of me kicking this cancer’s ass. But man I’m tired. But I know there is still so much to do… I’m going to need some major help.
Ok, I can’t look at the screen anymore, so I’m going to finish this tea Matt made for me and get some rest. And maybe sleep. But no more vomit please. I can’t take anymore of this nausea either…